Don't You Cry Baby

Talk to me softly
There is something in your eyes
Don't hang your head in sorrow
And please don't cry
I know how you feel inside I've
I've been there before
Somethin is changin' inside you
And don't you know

Don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry tonight

Give me a whisper
And give me a sign
Give me a kiss before you
tell me goodbye

Don't you take it so hard now
And please don't take it so bad
I'll still be thinkin' of you
And the times we had...baby

You gotta make it your own way
But you'll be alright now sugar
You'll feel better tomorrow
Come the morning light now baby

And don't you cry
Don't you ever cry
Don't you cry tonight
Baby maybe someday
Don't you cry
Don't you ever cry
Don't you cry
Tonight

I was overwhelmed with sadness when I heard that Jack was going back to China in two weeks, for good.

It didn't feel real until I talked to him over the phone, until he told me he already quit his job, until he told me about his plans for his company in China, until he told me he already found an apartment close to the factory and he was ready to work six days a week.

that's when I realize that we are going to lead very different lives from now on. Our path cross briefly in our journeys. Now it is time to say "good bye".

Some of my friends like to talk about how they probably will go back to China or wherever they came from eventually. But Jack, as far as I know, was thinking about buying a house, moving his parents here, and settling down in US. That's why it broke my heart to hear that he is leaving us in two weeks.

After I hang up the phone last night, I sat on my bed and cried. I am going to miss him so much. With him gone, who is gonna help me with my swimming techniques, who is gonna stay behind with me when we all go kayaking and I fall behind, who is gonna be my translator when everyone is cracking jokes in Cantonese.

I grabbed a new box of tissues and cried more. I had such a wonderful weekend. I danced with the boy I liked. I felt his arm around my wrist, his freshly shaved face against mine, his breath on my neck. I was all exceptionally happy and jolly for a Monday, then I heard the news about Jack. I was not prepared for it. Right after graduating from college, some of my friends went back to their own country, some of them went to other cities for work. I didn't shed a tear because i knew this was what supposed to happen when a chapter of life closed and a new one started. But I did not except that I would lose a good friend on a sunny afternoon in April. No, I was not prepare for it.

When I came to work this morning, a coworker asked me why my eyes were all red and puffy. He send me Guns n' Roses's "Don't Cry" after we finished our coversation. He is the kinda person that will always find the right song for the occasion. Part of the reason I felt so sad about Jack leaving is that I felt I wasn't as a good friend to him as he was to me. and now I won't have a chance to make it up to him. I played this song all day. I have to remind myself to be good to all these wonderful friends I have,including this coworker who knows exactly which song to give me when I am down, and never take any one of them for granted anymore.