Sunday Night Doesn't Have to be Depressing

this is such a great weekend! I spend the entire 2 days AT HOME. :B Haven't done this for a long time.
(Well~ I went to Border's saturday afternoon to study. But that's the same as staying at home.)
almost forgot how much staying at home can help me recharge.
Now it is Sunday night. and I feel great!! Totally ready for the new week!

This weekend didn't start out very well. two of my most favorite people left LA, one left on Friday, one on sunday. both will be gone for a week.

One of them I didn't even have a chance to say goodbye. the other, i don't know what to say to him when he called me from the airport before departure. he is going to see his mom who had a brain surgery a week ago. I can't find a single word in my vocabulary for an occasion like this.

on top of that, a friend in EU IMed me Friday afternoon. Before I could tell her my depression. She told me they broke the news to her. The bad news. knowing her for all those years, I know it must have crushed her. but there is nothing i can do. I can't fix her problems. it hurts me to see her suffer. and this time around, being there for her or all the mental support crap just won't do it anymore. I am worried.

by the end of the day friday, i was so exhausted.....i decided to stay home on friday night...and the whole weekend.

Guess What I found!
I found my sony digital voice recorder Saturday night. It's a gift from Kenny and Vicent for my 23rd birthday.:D I took it everywhere with me when I first got it. Couple months later, I had to packed everything and moved to long beach for my new job. after that, I moved one more time. but I didn't get around to unpack this recorder, and never get around to see Kenny or Vincent again.

I bought new batteries for it. To my surprise, the recorder still has the voices i saved. 6 of them.
in one of them, i made you say "Yilei is smarter than me." over the phone and recorded it.
in another one, you just said "happy birthday to Yilei" in chinese.
in another one, i asked you to say something and you said "testing one, two, there". and I called u "stupid"
in another one... all of them are our pointless conversations.

a silly girl, aren't i? i used the voice recorder for months and recorded all kinds of voice of myself. in the end, the only ones i saved are your voices.

if i am still in love with you, i will erase all of them now. but I kept them.


Sunset
After I rediscovered my voice recorder, i started to look for things to record. At last, I found myself reading the Little Prince. After recording about 5 to 6 chapters. I turned off the light and played it in the dark. It quickly put me into sleep. I dreamed about a sunset post card. QQ asked me to send her a post card of Sunset. i still haven't found one for her yet. The ones made for tourists all looked cheap and tasteless. In my dream, i saw the perfect post card. It's the little prince. He was sitting in a chair in his tiny planet looking at the sunset. Somehow he managed to tell me that "this is the 24th sunset I saw today." Then he had a incredibly sad look on his face. It sounds stupid now but it looked great in my dream.

Sunday
Sunday is today. Another great day. My depressions are completely gone. I cooked a big meal for myself for dinner including 3 main dishes, Shrimp and eggs, Stir fried vegetables and Golden Mushrooms, and one soup, creamy squash and pervered pork.
Life really has a great way of working things out. Just when you think you have fallen to the bottom, you find great things around the corner.