Liebe ist in der Luft

looks like i can not escape the strange circle of long distance relationships.
after i end one, there comes another one.
i begin to think maybe there is something wrong with me. maybe i get bored too easily, maybe i like the waiting, the anticipation more than the actual relationship.

but it feels so good when you like someone and that someone likes you back. the feeling is so overwhelming it overtook the fact that this is our last day together. you probably will be out of my life forever after tommorrow. you will fly back to that cold city~~ i am sure you will miss california, the beach, the sun, and me.

but who cares about tommorrow, about whether we can see each other again, whether we'll keep in touch over the phone, email or IM, whether we have a future together. none of these things will stop us from having a great time together TODAY.

and TODAY, your presence made me feel warm and light hearted especially when you hold my drink for me, when we wondered off from the group into the midst of the beach crowds, when we sat on the side of the streets and when you told me about your little hometown in that cold cold country.

by the end of the day, we stood outside of my apartment. i pointed out my bedroom window to you.

"that's my room. i moved here at the end of February."
your eyes lighted up, " really? i moved to a new apartment in February, too. february 15th."
this silly coincident made both of us very happy.
"only two weeks apart! "i yelled.
"oh yes."you said and you looked down at me and smiled, street lights shinning from the back of your head. hours later, i can still remember your face enveloped in the lights, the way you tilted your head, and the excitement in your eyes..........

before you left, I let you borrow one of my favorite books. we didn't talk about when you will have a chance to give it back to me. i only want you to like it.

after you left, i went upstairs to my room. i looked into the mirror on the wall. i saw my face still blushing and my eyes dancing in the reflection. for the first time in a long time, i am grateful for the life i have.