Friday, February 11, 2005

Garden State

I like Zach's comments about home.
He said something like you reach to a certain age and you realize that the idea of home is gone. There is this place where you put all of your stuff in. But it is not really your home. It's like you miss this place that doesn't exist anymore. You can no longer call your parents' place your home. Until one day, you start your own family, then this new family become your home.

I like this comment because although I have realize the same thing myself, I think many people have, but I don't hear people say it out loud very often. This is for the first time, I think, I hear someone say it in a very honest, genuine, non sarcastic way.

I did miss home a lot when I first came here. I went to sleep cry almost every night during the first week. But it eventually hit me that home is forever behind me or even better, the idea of my home went *puff* into the air.... That's when I don't feel homesick anymore. That's when I really start to enjoy my life here without that funny feeling in my heart. the feeling that there is a string attached to my heart and someone pull it ever so slightly now and then is gone. To realize that I am completely on my own and there is no home to fall back on is scary but liberating.

Another thing I like about this movie is the idea of being totally original and unique. I truly believe everyone is very very unique deep inside. But we don't let it out very often. We are so afraid to be the odd ones. I don't need to be unique. I just want to be my original self. But it is so hard to shake off all of the pretentious crap off me.

Then there is this lying part about Sam, the girl character in the movie. I lie about unimportant facts in my life as well. I don't know why. I just like to alter things here and there, all totally harmless, when I answer people questions. I guess I do it so one will never know who I really am. That's how I protect myself I guess. And to confess is my way of accepting this person in my life.

and I also like the simplicity of the colors in this movie. It helps me focus on the personality of the characters, understand the messages, and capture the soul of the movie.

There is nothing in this movie that makes me go, "wow~~ I have never heard that before!"
I didn't see anything totally mindblowingly new.
This movie is more like an echo in the valley. I thought of these things in my mind, but this is the first time to hear these thoughts being played back to me.
This movie is just very very real. That's all I have to say. After watching the movie, I felt like I've spent the entire Friday morning talking to an old friend.

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